Heartbreak and Healing
By all accounts I have been living a fairy tale these last 16 months. After unspeakable trauma, I found the absolute love of my life, my soulmate, the person who is truly my other half. Jesse is everything I ever dreamed about finding in my partner. While I have the most amazing, wonderful, brilliant, kind, and compassionate bonus son in Jesse's 10 year old son from his previous marriage, we had wanted to have a baby together. Having a child was something I always knew I wanted. I wanted the whole experience of being pregnant and giving birth to my child (with a lot of pain killers, of course!). I have written quite a bit about my son, Gabriel, who I lost to miscarriage. When I met Jesse, I truly believed that this dream would come true. Everything else about our relationship has been like a fairy tale, so why not this. Sure, we have had some hiccups, but even Cinderella had to deal with Lady Tremaine, two bitchy step-sisters, a sadistic cat and a whole lot of bullshit b